Hover over for translation. SET IN IVY HILL.



Among the many things the beast could ever endure, the forlorn monster was indeed crossing a destined path. Every once in a while, the beast traveled from its sacred den, and out into the open, whereas everything was clearer and held more meaning than inside a smelly den. For, lately, she found she'd been sharing her den with a male and his son, whoever they were; she had no clue. All she knew was, he kept referring to her as 'love' which kind of creeped her out in a sense. Now, she had come outside of that den, from fear that the male was after her or something. Escaping from his evil clutches, finding herself wandering reluctantly towards the Silver Creek borders. Honest to everything, she was looking for a little excitement. Maybe she'd go dwell in the water and find a squirrel to hassle. As cruel as it sounded, everyone knew it was smashing fun.

Things just never got any better for the young canadian, but she figured life went on with its ups and downs, right? Vous penseriez que j'aurais obtenu à la Crique Argente par maintenant, ces condamner clébards, im a fatigué si, she told herself, eyes focused clearly on the road ahead of her. Man, those mutts really needed to try and choose a pack that was closer to Mount Shadow, Kiri was very tired from her journey.Kiriana wasn't the least bit happy that everything seemed so far away lately. Was she getting older? Eyeing herself in a puddle of water, that had been left by the night before, she checked her muzzle to spot for gray hairs. Non, je n'obtiens pas plus vieux, vous la vieille sorcière, she mumbled to herself, not aware that she was being followed closely by someone whom she already found to be strange enough. Those damn mutts just always thought that they could do whatever they pleased, and everyone would love them, didn't they? Kiriana thought everything about that was wrong. She was quite a loner whenever it came to being with someone. At least, from what she knew so far.

For the love of everything, she honestly hoped that she'd find out some way how to get in shape for crossing that path to Silver Creek again. Damn well, she was sick of walking. So, with a heave, she slumped her body down onto the ground, blinking unsteadily. Maybe next time I'll just dig a hole to the hill, she mumbled, as she closed her eyes, ready to doze off into a nice slumber, just to feel the uneasy rythym of drowsiness engulf her mind. It wasn't easy to find something so easily, and when she would awake, she'd go scouting for something shiny to search for in the waters. It'd been so long she'd gone in search of a precious water gift. As a child, she loved to go adventuring into the water anywhere to find precious rocks, and shiny diamond-like stones to admire and gawk at. Now, she was more grown up, but hell, she didn't give a care anymore. She wanted a shiny rock.

Poor Kiriana and Element :( Kiri is all "RAWR" and Ele is all "love?"



Sleeping off in that land she wished to call her own sometime, it was all peaceful. A large meadow, full of sunflowers. She didn't remember being in a place with sunflowers, but yet she saw it in almost every dream she had. There she was, with some nameless wolf in front of her. Her eyes falling to sleep fairly easily, she knew that something was going to disrupt her sleep. She didn't feel bad at all that she had walked out of that strange males den, with his son. She simpled could not stand the fact that he was trying to get her to like him, by him continuously calling her 'love' and giving her a fake nickname. He had no right to give her a nickname, especially since she didn't know him, and she had let him sleep in her den.

As she had almost drifted to sleep, a slightly familiar smell came to her senses. He was there. He had followed her, how dare that piece of shit follow her. Eyes glaring as she was laying, she opened her eyes briefly, a glare to the empty space in front of her, as the male was behind her. That moster of a male had followed her, and now he was going to get it. Lifting herself from her position, she turned around to face the male, eyes filled with anger and stress. Paws began to ready themselves for a good run, before the male began to speak his insolent words. Kiriana shook her head, enraged that this male would indeed follow her, then ask all the questions. How it made her feel so low and incomplete. Was that little pup somewhere too?

You shouldn't be here, she snapped, green eyes filtering through the young male, filtrating the position that she had gathered up. She defending her life, and her personal life. He had no right to call her love. Whats wrong is you keep following me, she snapped again, eyes figuratively growling at the young male. I was fine, until you, the stranger, keeps following me everywhere I go. I expect your little boy is somewhere around here too? she asked, eyeing the surroundings, yet keeping the edge of her eyes on the black male, for any sign of movement towards her.

Dude. this is like, hilarious yet very somber. :o its like...depression almost.



Indeed, Kiriana had no memory of this male ever being anywhere near her. It seemed that he resembled the wolf in her dreams, only slightly. No. It was all a trick, this male had been brainwashing her or something. That had to be it. This was crazy talk, she wouldn't ever have him in her dreams - would she? And who are you to give nicknames and call 'love' to, hmm? she answered, her jaw snapping open then shut with one click, as her ears twitched at every small movement. The male seemed distraught, and very unsatisifed with her behavior, but she didn't mind. He deserved it. Stalking her, calling her 'love' and giving her a nickname. She wouldn't handle it.

Hearing that nickname being called forth to her again, she gave a short growl. You keep following me! I was making my way, from my den, and your following me, she answered, eyeing him rather closely. He'd better watch his tail, cause soon she would spring forth and attack his thin-boned butt. Worrying you? Why would you be worried about me? I'm an independent wolf, I can do just fine on my own without any help from, whoever you are, she answered, eyes pentrating a short sadness, yet very undetectable. At her remark on stranger, he seemed slightly confused with her words. Yes, he was a complete and total stranger to the sick Kiriana.

Although it seemed that the little boy wasn't around, as she sensed no other wolves around the area than herself and this male, who seriously needed to pick up his paws and leave. Could you please, honestly, stop giving me that nickname, she asked calmly, eyeing him just as carefully as before, wondering just why he was so keen to follow her, and call her odd names, and pretend like they'd known each other. Listen, Sir..Element, I mean. I barely know you, I've let you share my den with you and your son, and now your following me? Think you could lay off? Boy, if things couldn't get any harsher. Things were pretty screwed up in this household.

I TOLD MYSELF I WOULDN'T CRY, AND WHEN I READ THAT LAST PHRASE, I DID CRY. god. im a loser. seriously. The poor couple.



An annoyance, really.

This stupid male was really starting to get on her nerves. He kept on referring to her as a love, as kiri, and as a retard who knew the black male. Perhaps he mistook her for someone else. Perhaps a prettier female, or a larger female, a female that actually fell in love with him. She found that she never believed in love, as it was a dangerous thing to get into, and that you find yourself falling out of. Le garçon, ils ne semblent jamais remarquer juste, n'est-ce pas? she mumbled to herself, quietly thinking about who this male was probably thinking about. Perhaps he was talking about Atraiyu, that nice little arctic wolf that she'd seen just earlier. Interesting wolf, strange, but interesting.

What? Now the boy was claiming that the den was theirs? When did it become theirs? She shared her den with nobody. As thoughts of reclaiming her den, and kicking out the father and son, she felt drowsy yet again, eyes falling closed very simply. Limbs falling very limp, in obvious pursuit of the sickness in which was instilled into her body. Thank you, for finally using my proper name, she commented, with a small dramatic effect, as the drowsiness seemed to be taking over her body. Scuse me, lad. But someone needs to lay down, she commented, as she tried to move her body, so she could get to a laying down position, and stumbled slightly to her right, before settling down upon the ground. Ah, much better. She layed her head down on her paws, as she looked off towards the hill.

Now he spoke of a sickness, something he said she had. Was it true? Was there a sickness going around? Was she - was she lovers with this male? Nah. Kiriana would've never fallen in love, love was such a precious thing that she'd always contradicted herself on. Sick? But I'm just a lil' tired, thats all, she mumbled, closing her eyes gently. But as he spoke of laying her eyes on his, she lifted her muzzle up to open her eyes, and stared him straight into his gray, cold eyes. Like I already told you. I have never met you, I don't know you and I dont... she led off short. Something told her not to say it. Like an instant reflex it shot through her. Something was wrong, she felt it everytime she said that in her mind, all to herself. What if, they really were? She shot her eyes downcast, trying to match things up, but nothing came.

hmm. its hard to play kiriana. cause i dont know if she'd know only small things like if they were friends or something. AND MY EAR BURNS LIKE HELL, MAN. OW. feels like someone put a torch to my ear x_o



All signs didn't lead. All she'd done, was go for a walk to the Cascades, then crossed the river a few days back. There was absolutely nothing wrong with that! Every few things she decided, she felt absolutely hurt. What ifs ran through her mind like chocolate through a chocolate factory. Everytime she looked at him, and even as their eyes connected, she felt hurt, emotionally and physically. She saw compassion in his eyes, something she'd never seen in anyone else before, at least from wolves that looked at her. She couldn't say what he'd said for the second part, because she felt that saying it, would go against what her mind said. Her mind told her not to say it, but her feelings said her mind was lying to her. She could see a small smirk light his face through the evening shadows, as it seemed he was pleased she couldn't say it.

I can say it! she murmured, eyeing him, slightly disgusted. My mind just won't let me, she led off, gazing at the ground, wondering if this was all a joke. Maybe she'd wake up soon, and this nightmare would all be over. But I don't remember you, at all, she commented, looking back up at him, her eyes were filled with dizziness, feeling as if she were going t collapse at anytime during this dreadful meeting. Someone, when she woke up, she knew today was going to be an off day. Everyone knew that when you woke up, feeling slightly off, that everything was weird for the day.

He began moving closer, and she made no attempt to move backwards. If he believed they were lovers, he wouldn't harm her. But as he placed one paw ontop of her own, she flinched inwardly. She did feel something, but it was an odd something. An affectionate touch, a touch that only her psychotic mother had given her. I'm sorry. You just - dont strike my memory, Element, she whispered, gazing up at him, as she pulled her paw away slowly. Lifting herself up, stumbling left and right uneasily, she then looking at him, her eyes almost in dreamland with her drowsiness. And all I wanted was a quiet walk through the cascades, to ivy hill and maybe farther, but noooo, I had to put in a nightmare of this odd meeting! she crooned, wondering just how fake this nightmare was.

man. seriously. ill break down crying before element does! :o



Everything felt wrong, as usual. She felt torn, yet she felt stronger than ever. Perhaps it was just this drowsiness. She hadn't gotten much sleep last night, which caused her to believe she needed to get out more, and exercise her limbs to get more into her system of sleep. But, it seemed it wasn't working. She hated to see the strange male like this, but she couldn't help me. Perhaps someone was identical to her, and she didn't want to let him down, and didn't say that she didn't love him, just so she could help a guy out and disappoint him that she wasn't he female he was mated to. That had to be it, because Kiriana didn't remember anything about love ever crossing her mind, or even a child. Since when was their a child in her life?

At the sudden question asked by the black and white male, she quirked a brow. Why did someone ask her to stay with her? No one had ever wanted to stick by her side as a friend, so this must've been something strange. Yeah, I don't mind if you stay with me. Guess a lonely 'sick' wolf needs some company? she wondered slightly. She didn't believe she was sick, but if she was sick, it was possible she needed someone there with her, just in case something did happen. The worst she'd do, would be to fall unconscious for a few minutes or so, or get all stumbly and not remember where she was. There had to be a catch to this whole thing. Otherwise, why would he be so desperate to help her?

Eyes were most definetly fixated on the male, as she had begun to aid her limbs upwards and stumbled in the process. The boy quickly rushed to her side, holding her up gently, and she gave a muffled laugh, that seemed to disappear fairly quickly. Merci, Element, she replied, looking at the young male through green to grey eyes. M'aider aussi longtemps que vous voulez, she answered, as he probably wouldn't be able to understand it, but whenever she was slightly off, or believed herself to be alone, french was something she could do by herself, and not have to worry about someone understanding her.

gah. im so sorry. my mom caught me online last night, and I had to get off. :( I might not be on later, because my mom wants me to stay completely off the computer while we go through my nasty room =/



It was slightly hard for her to imagine ever saying yes to being mates with someone. She'd always pictured herself as indepedent and insecure, and never once giving her heart to a male. She believed that all males did was tear hearts and break down walls. But, someting was different about this one. He was sensitive, compassionate, affectionate all in one. He seemed to believe so much that she was in fact the love of his love. But she didn't remember ever saying anything to him, ever meeting him before - except in those daydreams she had from time to time. But those were never real - were they? If this is a sickness you say, she started off, trying to get her balance back up to par, Then why aren't I coughing or something? she questioned, knowing that when your sick, usually you cough and sneeze.

She could feel the heat iminating from the males body, as she tried to cope with the touch of someone else before her. She wasn't all too big on touching, but if she really was sick, it was best he help her. And if this would help her, he was allowed to. Anything she needed, she'd have to tell him. why did she have to tell him? She was a free wolf, she could do whatever she pleased, couldn't she? Oh wait, the guy was trying to help her. Blinking her eyes out of sleepiness she gave a coy grin, I'm hungry, she mumbled, as she had heard her stomach growl through all of the confusion; multiple times. Now, she sounded like she was taking advantage of this. Halfway she was, but then again, she was really hungry.

Eyes looked over at the lack male, who seemed so eager to help. And though she spoke in french, he seemed to understand most of it. You know french? How fantastic. I speak french, yes I do, she mumbled, having a slight lapse in memory. Boy, did she feel like she was high on some nuclear drug. Maybe this male was part of the nuclear drug? are you under any ilegal business, mr. woofers? she asked kindly, as her muzzle looped around to look at him, gazing with a goofy grin. She felt like something had just hit her in the head, hard as a boulder. But, they were no where near any boulders out in Silver Creek. Only small, itsy bitsy rocks.

gah.



In all these moments, the feeling of possibly having a lover hit her hard. If he was staying, then that meant that he really was caring for her. Maybe it was a trick, to get her to think that she loved him, and he loved her. She'd heard of things like this happening. Thus far, she wished that even if they really were lovers, then why couldn't she remember much from it. All she knew was that he was helping her with her 'sickness' as he called it. Element seemed like a pretty decent guy, but she still had to hold her guard. Everyone had their fair share of play, and she wasn't too excited on the fact he was helping her, and that he kept on insisting like they were the best of friends. She didn't remember the lad at all, so, wasn't she right?

A headache? You only had a headache? Boy, I hate headaches. They're so, she paused, achy. Okay, so she wasn't very intelligent at the moment with her words, but she wished that from this sickness, him saying she had forgotten things, she wished she'd only gotten a headache. Headaches were way less painful, and didn't cause you to feel all sleepy. Who else is sick, Mr. Woofers, that you know? she asked quietly, wanting to go run up the hill just for a few seconds and come running back down. But the black male seemed to not want to let her get out of his sight. She wanted to run from him, and be free, and not be babied like this, but if she really was sick, she needed some help.

She heard that faint rubbling in her stomach, declaring that she was still pretty hungry, and that she wanted food, pronto. Her green eyes filled with dizziness, she looked over towards the male, greens wandered through gray, but no affections encountered. You'd get meh food just fer meh? she answered, looking at him with sparkling, yet confused eyes. With a gentle lick on his maw, it was a lick of thanks. She then began to lay her body down to the ground, hoping that she could get some sleep in, before the male came back. She hated feeling the emptiness that something was missing, and that was exactly it. She couldn't help but feel as if everything was indeed crashing. Her body had crashed already. Meaning as soon as Element had left the area to get food, her body had slunk off to a sleep.

As her eyelids were closed, and she was dancing back to sleep, the same daydream came to her. Except, more wolves had come into the scene. Tons of them, all hanging over her, staring at her as she slept. She looked at them, they looked at her. Whispering things about how sick she looked, and that she wouldn't be cured after all of this. With that, she woke up with a jolt at the idea that she would never return to what the black male spoke of normal. No, she wasn't sick, goddamnit. She was just playing sick for the male, so he could treat her like a princess. Just like she'd always wanted. But, it was a good thing she could trust him without being an illegal wolf out to grab her life and savings. Boy, that was the last thing she needed.

<3



Boy. If things didn't lighten up fast for these two, he may just have to work his charm back into their relationship, for things didn't seem to be going anywhere. Kiriana was as stoned as a drugee, and Element was just as depressed as an emo. How tragical was it that the two lovers seemed different yet so the same in stereotypical form at the moment. Boy, whoever this mate of his really was, she had a nice guy to be following and prancing around with. It was obvious in the females sickness, that she wished she knew what he was talking about. A sign that she really was sick. Maybe a physical sign. For now, she believed that he was lying that they were lovers. And that the stumbling and drowsiness was just because of lack of sleep. Or something close to that matter. Besides, how was she supposed to know what was right and wrong in this situation?

Upon everyone detail she saw, she wasn't sure what to think. From everything she knew about the deceiving males, you couldn't ever find out when they were lying or telling the truth. There had to be some way to jog her memory, get her in the right path to knowing what was right and wrong. For a moment, it flashed back to the very moment they were helping make the den she called her own bigger, and he had said those few words. A small grin lit her face, but it still felt strangely awkward, to hear those words. No, its a fantasy dream. She's dreaming that he persuaded her to let him and his son sleep with her in the den by making it bigger. That had to be it, and she just wanted to know that someone loved her, and made him say those things in her sleep. That had to be it. With an interesting twist, her head jerked upwards, eyes fully attentive.

Mmmm, she replied, as his own reply had come off as he was willing to go fetch her some food. With ease, she lowered her head back down, trying to possiblity figure this out. But nothing was damn working. Maybe after he left, she should get up and go off somewhere. Someone could cure her, there had to be. Some others had to be able to get rid of this sickness. Grab me something to eat, mmhmm, she answered, and nodded slowly as to not go anywhere. She wanted to run off and forget that she came in touch with him, but she'd halfway promied to stay put. So, she closed her green pools and wandered off into a dream-like sleep, hoping to sleep forever, until she was cured for the rest of forever.

<3 This might turn out shorter than expected. My muse and awakeness is going down by the minute.



By every second that passed, as the male wasn't near her, she felt slightly empty. She wanted some company, to keep her from dozing off. It might have been possible that she would doze off, and then never return back to reality. Sure enough, she felt like she was drifting out of reality with each intake of air. For insake, she wished upon only one thing. For this sickness to flee form her body. Although she still remained wary of what was going on, she wanted to get up and leave, and never return. If she was going to suffer in sickness, it was best that she did that away from the rest of the wolves, so they wouldn't be traumatized by the loss of someone they might've known and the death-trader had forgotten. She just didn't want to see anyone else hurt, like this male was. Although he seemed to be wanting to help her regain her strength, everything was rather off.

Reaching her nose up to the fresh air, she noted that death lingered in every inch of air around her. Normally, the air was bustling with joy, and aliveness. But now, the air was rather dead-scented, and nothing came to interest. Perhaps everyone had switched over to some land, as to where no one would get sick. But that was a rather not-going-to-happen kind of suit. Even though she felt glad that the male had offered to get food for her, she still felt like she had made a large disappointment in the male. As well as everything added up, she felt like she just couldn't regain her memory for her sake, and of her family she once had complete memory over. Perhaps something would come up, and this sickness would wear off. For now, she just wanted to stop her hungry stomach from growling. Waiting for the brave soldier to return from his hunt.

*comes back in all sad like* kira wants to reply to more things...KIRA WILL MAKE MORE THREADS. ohyes. *cackles* my eye hurts, ow. I got a new comforter, and a new candy-like pillow. (its a pillow, and it has the trademark of "Twizzlers" on it) heehee. I like pillows.



By an odd strike of luck, as her head lay down for rest, she could almost remember it like it was just yesterday. Memory lapse, that was for sure. She remembered very few of the wolves she'd met. But she remember some, because they had stuck out as obvious. There was that boy, Deceit, yes. He caused her emotional agony and strange protectiveness that was rarely shown. Then there was the time on Mount Shadow, where she'd met up with a fuzzy white coat with gorgeous blue eyes, and then that weird looking, yet so totally adorable puppy, named Bryndel. Then of course there was a newcomer, a small puppy by the name of Akeboshi. And then Kiriana had thought very much into the process and had jumped to the punchline when the pup needed a home, and that was when Kiriana had adopted him. Wait. She remembered some of it now, Akeboshi. Her..her adopted son, so, did that mean that the male now, was, really who he seemed to say he was?

In her half-like sleep, her nose began to twitch with the comings of the male. Of course by then, she wished she could see his face now, but her eyes didn't want to open. So, she gave a small wag of her tail, waiting for him to make an approach closer. In an instant, she knew it just had to be. But then how come she felt so miserable, and why had she forgotten that crucial detail about her life? Opening her green eyes, she had noticed the male had just dropped the squirrel down in front of her, and sat down a foot or two away from her, allowing her to eat. She lifted up her head quietly, looking at the squirrel, then turning her direction towards the alabaster male. She nodded her head in thanks, before she lowered her head down to the squirrel. Bringing it closer with the clamp of her jaws, she was about to take a piece, when she thought maybe she should ask him a question, before she dug in, and talked to him with nasty blood-coated canines.

Are...Are you Akeboshi's guardian too? she said, as she looked over at him, waiting for an answer. But her stomach made its normal gurgling noise, and she decided to go ahead and eat, hoping that her stomach wasn't upset. She lowered her maw to the squirrel, taking a small bit out of his back, just to feel the soft meat curl around her canines, as it then swam down her throat, the blood letting it slide down there with ease. Before going to her second piece, she looked back over at the ebony male, wondering just how long she'd go, with losing every memory she had. It had taken her a truly long while to actually get to remember what had happened so far. But now that she knew, she wanted to get to the bottom of it.

I just got back from seeing Pirates of the Caribbean 2 for the second time (: Noticed some GOOF-UPS in that movie. Only two, but still very noticeable when you see it the second time. And, I just need to "WHERE IS THE THUMP THUMP?" XDDD



By any strike of odds, she could feel her stomach churning into matters unknown. She'd never fully understood that her sickness could indeed spread outwards. So, if this was true. He was her mate, then that meant he had to know something about her. Something personal. If anything, he had to know her last name, or perhaps, maybe knew of her favorite place to be? And of course, it wasn't on Mount Shadow. Her favorite place to be excluded mount shadow, seeing as that was her home, and everything on it was the best thing to ever happen to her. It was somewhere off of Mount Shadow, a place she loved to visit from time to time. A place she found quite thrilling. Maybe, this would solve the never-ending conclusion, that he really was the mate in which he said he was.

But as his gaze turned directly towards her, her eyes cowarded in fear, that in fact he would eventually snap at her, for not remembering him. Yea. I...I adopted the golden fellow, she mumbled, her eyes tracing the ground in a rythmatic pattern, almost as if she was about to be conked out by the light that had come through from the merciless trees. That little pup, that was inside my den...our den, is Akeboshi? she felt ashamed, not to remember her own dear pup. Looking at him, she saw things unimaginable. Did he know her like he believed to. Was it just that mate who would do anything, even bow down to her if need be. Hey, Element was lucky that he hadn't a clue she believed she was a sorceress with a wand-like stick from time to time.

As she thought about the mere consequences, she needed to know if this boy, really did know her as a mate, or if he was just fooling with the already deranged mind. Then, you must know everything about me. Where my favorite place to be is, and the thing that touches my heart most of all? she asked kindly, simply, yet politely kind. If he knew the answer, he had to be telling the truth. If not, well, he'd be zapped with the almighty wand of DOOM. If this wasn't enough trouble already for the poor guy. But, she just needed to make sure she knew what she would be getting into, if she just didn't ask those questions, she could wind up enslaved to a boy forever. And if he were telling the truth, she'd find out she made the wrong turn and went for a boy at a very raw age.

haha. last time i looked at the post count of this thread, it was 14. now its 24 XD



She didn't know much of anything anymore. She knew her name, and all her history of her life, except for when she came to the salvaje. Some had come, some had not. Although it came slow, it came sooner or later than expected. She just needed time to think, and sleep. But right now, she wanted to know if he really was, who he said he was. ...and I got mad at you? she questioned, staring at him, green eyes filled with small joy, yet still as confused as ever. She had it coming back, she just still was caught in the glimpse of things. She was surprised for her to remember it at long last, but that still left no surprise to anyone. Hunting... she mumbled, remembering just how good it was to be out there, chasing your food down. Thats...Thats my job! Goodjob, Sherlock.

Under the questions she had asked, she sure hoped that he would be able to remember these things. They were probably the most important things to her, and if he remembered them, she'd know he was who he said he was. But with the first question answers, a smile finally filtered her face, as she grinned lopsidedly, ushering him on to the next question, and with each correct answer, Kiriana scooted closer to him, pulling her still vamished squirrel with her. Correct. I've fallen in love with the lake, and the mountain at close first, she whispered, her eyes diving into his house, hoping he would see this masculine recognize that sick or not sick, she was another wolf destined to be free like the rest of the wolves in the valleys.

And indeed, she could recognize the thoughts running through his head look. The absent look, that he was trying to remember the exact thing. Thinking was okay with you, at least he used his mind instead of blurting out an answer. With the answer to her second question, she scooted a tad bad closer, looking at him through her eyes. And with his final words, she nodded her head gently. So you are him afterall. I..Im sorry for the way I treated you earlier.. she mumbled, sheepishly looking down at the ground, as her eyes stumbled shut for a moment, as if wanting to go to sleep, before she opened them back up, and laying her head down on her paws, before her mind totally collapsed with her thinking patterns.